Wednesday, September 14, 2011

i carry your heart

i carry your heart with me

by ee cummings 
 
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
                                                      i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
 
In loving memory of Naya Jane Manalo. July 24, 2011 - September 14, 2011

102 comments:

  1. Oh, so very very sorry. You have been so brave through the deepest sorrow. I will keep you and your sweet angel in my prayers.
    -Joanie, a friend of Kristen's

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  2. We love you all soooo much! Our hearts are breaking for you. I wish I could take your pain away, but I can't! She was a fighter and was loved by so many! We now have a little angel in heaven!

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  3. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Prayers for your family.

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  4. Ohhhh... I am so sorry. I don't have the words to say right now... I am crying as I type this. Your beautiful sweet baby girl will be missed by many. Her story has truly touched me and I will light a candle for her tonight. Naya, you are so loved. God bless you and your family during this time.

    With love,
    Alexis

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  5. So, so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

    Romans 8:38-39 -nothing can separate us from the love of Christ.

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  6. You are in "my" heart. I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine. Light & Love to you all in this very hard and trying time.

    Hobbit.

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  7. We don't know each other but I'm from July 2011 board and began reading your blog. I'm am deeply saddened to read about the loss of Naya today. She is so beautiful and will be watching over you all... She was definitely a warrior by how you spoke of her in your posts... God bless you and your family.

    Lupe

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  8. "a butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
    And for a brief moment it's glory and beauty belong to our world
    But then it flies again
    And though we wish it could have stayed we feel lucky to have seen it."

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  9. I am so sorry for your loss. I cry with you and your family. I am from the July birthboard and my heart goes out to you. May god grant you the strength and comfort you need in this dark time. Love, thoughts and prayers from a complete stranger.

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  10. Tina and Tim PacelliSeptember 14, 2011 at 10:14 PM

    We are so sorry for your loss. Naya Jane will always be that angel watching over all of you - God bless you and your family.

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  11. You are in our thoughts, prayers, and hearts. With love, the Bleskes.

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  12. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We pray for you to find strength and peace in this difficult time.

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  13. I am soo sorry Jamie and Dan. You are wonderful parents. Know that Naya touched so many lives in her short time.

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  14. God Bless you and your family. You all, and especially Naya,have been in our prayers every night. You will continue to be in our prayers to help you through this hard time. At least now your little Angel is at peace and in no pain. I'm sure she is watching over you all,smiling,and sending all her love to you for all the love you showed and shared with her. Love to you whole family.
    Phil and Marie

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  15. Jamie and Dan, I was directed to your blog by a friend of a friend. I am so so sorry about your daughter. I have also lost a daughter. It's the worst thing in the world, and I am devastated you have to know this pain.

    I know we are strangers, but if you ever want to talk to someone who understands what you're going through, please don't hesitate to contact me.

    My heart aches for you.

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  16. We are so deeply sorry for your loss. You are in our thoughts and our prayers. Jarrod and Philippa

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  17. Jamie and Dan, my heart breaks with you. Naya soars on the wings of your love. Please know I stand with everyone that holds you in all our hearts. - Al Nunez Jr.

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  18. "Those we love don't go away,
    They walk beside us every day,
    Unseen, unheard, but always near,
    Still loved, still missed and very dear."

    Our hearts are breaking for your loss. All our love, Soti and Rico

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  19. Jamie and Dan, Karen and I are extremely saddened and heartbroken by your loss and can only imagine the pain you must be going through. While your family has already been in our thoughts and prayers 24/7, and this blog has been a daily stop to keep up to date, even more prayers will be sent tonight and in the days coming... It's heartbreaking to have read about Naya and hear about the outcome, but you two are amazing parents and we wish you the best. God bless you your family. We are always here if you need someone to talk to..
    Joe (Karen) Pitterle

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  20. I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers. May god be with you to help you through this sad time.

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  21. My heart is absolutely broken for you... So painfully so. I can't imagine what you're feeling... I've been thinking and praying for you and your family and will continue to do so.

    She is a beautiful angel, happy and peaceful.

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  22. Words cannot express the sorrow I feel for your loss. You, your family and Naya are in our thoughts and prayers. Steve and Linda Wagner

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  23. My heart breaks for you and your family. I am from the July board and have been following you blog and have been praying for your beautiful girl. Take comfort in knowing that she is no longer in pain and she is watching over you from above. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  24. Naya has moved on to greener pastures, a place free of breathing tubes and heart monitors. We love you both and are sorry beyond explanation for your loss.
    Clay & Steph

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  25. I am so, so sorry, Jamie. My heart aches for you. I can't even imagine how you and Dan are feeling: you are both such great parents. You did every possible thing you could. And so did she.

    Much love to you until I can give you a great, big hug in person.

    "As you danced in the light with joy,
    love lifted you.
    As you brushed against this world so gently,
    you lifted us."
    T.C. Ring

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  26. Our hearts are breaking. The only consolation is that we still have all of you and your great family. Praying for you and Naya.

    The SLO Kennedys.

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  27. Naya laughs in heaven with the angels--of this I am certain. My prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for showing me what it means to parent and how to be a Mom. Naya picked the best pair of parents to love her during her too short stay on this earth.

    Ocean_sigh (july birth club)

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  28. My thoughts and prayers are with your family tonight. I'm so very sorry for your loss. -stranger and fellow mother from Missouri

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  29. Dan and Jamie: I'm deeply sorry for your loss...as I father, I can't imagine the pain and sorrow you and your family are going through... Little angel Naya will remain in our hearts forever!!!
    -rico and sotara-

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  30. I am so sorry for your great loss. My prayers are with you and your husband and family. God Bless, Denise (cousin of Sara S.)

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  31. With all the pain, I hope you can please take solace in knowing that little Naya touched the hearts of many people. We now know that we have one very special angel watching over us. Bless the most beautiful little girl. Her time was short, but not in vain. She will forever be remembered.

    July 2011 Birth club

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  32. God bless the little one in heaven and give you both the strength to carry on. You all will be in our daily thoughts and prayers. The Shastrys.

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  33. I'm so deeply saddened to hear of Naya's passing. She was a strong and beautiful little girl and is now a perfect angel watching you in heaven. Take as much comfort as you can in those around you. I will be keeping your family in my prayers.

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  34. I had been following your blog since I saw your post on the July baby board. I was praying for Maya. I am so sorry for your loss words cannot express the pain I feel for you. My heart goes out to you and you're family. I will still keep you in my prayers. May God bless you.

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  35. I am so heartbroken for you right now. I will continue to pray that God grant you and everyone who so loved little Naya strength, comfort and healing. I bet Naya will be wearing that pink tutu as she dances in heaven.
    --Jennifer (a fellow mom from the July 2011 board)

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  36. Jamie and Dan, I'm so sorry for your loss..

    Lizzy

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  37. My heart is with you and your family dear Jamie. We all love you so much and our deepest sympathy for your loss.. I am so sorry sweetie!

    Lynn Pinard and Family

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  38. May God lift you all and grant you continued strength during this incredibly difficult time. You have shown us what it means to be amazing parents and people. Hoping for peace and enormous love and support for you all.

    ~ Jenny, from the July Birth Club

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  39. I've followed your blog since you posted it on the July birth board. Naya touched so many, such a strong and brave little girl. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Dan, and Ty.

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  40. so sorry for your loss, may God confort you in this difficult time, Your baby is an angel and you will see her sweet face again one day .....
    from october 2011 birth club

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  41. We're all so very sorry to hear of your loss. You have all been so brave and positive through this unbelievable ordeal. My God bless Naya and your whole family.

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  42. I am so very saddened that you both must feel this pain. Take comfort in knowing she is at peace now. May God's peace, comfort, and love pour down on you in this time of need. I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for your family.

    July 2011 board

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  43. I am sorry for your loss...a little angel has returned to heaven! May the Lord bless your family and give you strength during this trying time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. May peace be with you!

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  44. Please contact me on babycenter's July board under "sagitta143". I'd like to help!

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  45. From the July board I am sorry to read this, I hoped that she would pull out of it yesterday. I am sorry again, my thoughts and prayers are with you today.

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  46. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  47. I am so very sorry for your family's loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you. I have been following Naya's story since you posted your blog on the July birth board. My God be with you. -Sarah

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  48. Vicki Gerenstein RathundeSeptember 15, 2011 at 4:49 AM

    Dear Jamie,
    I am in awe of your courage and strength. You are wise beyond your years. My life has been forever impacted by the honesty and emotions that you so graciously shared each evening. You have shown the true essence of the joy and pain that comes with being a mother. You and Danny could not have fought any harder for Naya. Naya could not have fought any harder for you. Your faith in letting her lead you will bring you peace. Naya will forever be like the shooting star in the night sky that is gone too soon. Brilliant for a brief moment in your lives but in your hearts forever.
    I have never met you Jamie so I feel like I should thank you for allowing me to follow you on your journey. I have daughters your age so as a mother you touched a chord in me that wanted to reach out to you. I have known your Dad for a long time.
    My thoughts will be with you, Danny and Ty and your loving family,
    Vicki Gerenstein Rathunde

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  49. I too am from the July birth board. I applaud your strength through all you have been through. Even though Naya was here a short time she was truly a warrior and touched numerous people's lives. I will continue to pray for you and your family. God bless!

    Brittany Dworman

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  50. Im from the july birth board and was following Naya's story. I am so very sorry for your loss my thoughts and prayers are with your family during this dark time. She was so strong and will always be your sweet angel watching over you and yours. Hugs to you and yours

    Kristen Doan

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  51. From the July board. Thinking and praying for you in this time. So sorry for your loss.

    "For just a little while,
    We have shared the music.
    For just a little while,
    We have shared a dream.
    But, I know that in my heart
    We will never be apart.
    What a special time it was,
    For just a little while."

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  52. I am so very sorry for your loss! Jamie you are a wonderful mother and you did everything possible. Naya got her fighting spirit from you god has decided he wanted to call home his most perfect angel. I will continue to keep you guys in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sending you my love and that of my families. God bless and I believe little Naya is playing with my little angel.

    -Mav_Smith

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  53. A Child Goes to Heaven
    by Linda Ann Henry


    A child goes to Heaven
    On angel's wings,
    God is waiting at the gate
    For all in Heaven to sing.

    Her mother had much sadness
    To see her child go,
    Yet she knew God was calling
    Her tears and heart told her so.

    A child goes to Heaven
    A beautiful light comes in,
    When her mother saw it
    She felt peace within.

    Her child would no longer be hurting
    She went to Heaven in God's special care,
    A child goes to his Heavenly Father's heart
    and will soon meet her mother there

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  54. She was so lucky to have you. Rest in peace Naya.

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  55. I have followed your blog since I found the link at BBC. Your daughter is one day older than mine and I have been so incredibly moved by this story. My heart is breaking wide open for you and I cannot imagine your pain. She was a brave, brave soldier and you have been the most amazing mother. I know no words can take away your pain but her pain has ended and I hope at some point that brings you comfort. We never know why God calls some angels sooner but I truly believe little Naya touched a LOT of people in her 7 and a half weeks on earth. Most people don't accomplish in a lifetime what she did in 2 months. God Speed, Naya....and thank you for a beautiful lesson on strength and perserverance....

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  56. Also, from the July board and I wanted to send you hugs. What a wonderful mother you are, so strong. I have been blessed by reading about little Naya and her amazing mother.

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  57. Jamie & Dan, We are so sorry for your loss. Love, Albert & Sharon Ramirez

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  58. Jamie, Dan, Ty, & Naya,
    I cry with you for this sad sad loss. My heart just broke open reading this. I am so so sorry that your time together as a family was cut so short. All of your strength during this time has absolutely amazed me and I have learned so much from you, as a mom, while reading your blog, your thoughts, your wisdom, your heart. I am forever grateful for your courage in sharing your life and your Naya with all of us. She IS an amazing spirit!
    So much love, Kristin

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  59. bravi!
    to both of you, jamie and daniel.
    for holding her with such strength, for letting her go with such deep love.
    thank you naya, for being our teacher, our guide.
    with big hugs wrapped around all of you...including her big bro! xxxxgina

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  60. I am so sorry for the loss of your angel girl. I am crying as I type this because I too fell in love with your little girl. I prayed so much for her and I wish I could heal your pain. You have been an inspiration throughout your ordeal and your faith and love will be what gets you through this great loss. With all the prayers around the US, we wish you the best.

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  61. I'm so sorry for your loss! When I saw the poem this morning my stomach just churned and turned over in overwhelming saddness for your family. I know there is nothing I can say that can make you feel better but please know that I am thinking of youband your family.

    Jamie (from July birth board)

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  62. Jamie, I am so, so sorry for your loss. You are a strong mother, and even stronger after what you have gone through with Naya. You did everything you could possibly do. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  63. Jamie, Dan & Ty,
    My heart breaks for you all on the loss of your little warrior. Carry her strength with you as you move forward.
    Stephanie Coray

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  64. Jamie and Dan,
    Please accept my most sincere condolences on your loss. I do not have words for this. I am so sorry. I know that Naya's spirit will live on through you guys and your family and friends who met her. I wish you strength to get through this time. Rest In Peace Naya.

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  65. Jamie and Dan, We are sorry to hear this and extend our love and best wishes to you both. We pray for peace and happiness for you and your family and for Naya. We hope that you get some comfort in knowing that you are loved and supported by many, many friends and loved ones.
    Barney and Linda Reitner

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  66. So sorry for your loss. You are in our prayers

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  67. Dear Baby Naya,
    During your short time on this earth you and your parents have touched so many of us. Your parents love and strength is such as inspiration. Though we've never met, I too will carry you in my heart always.

    Amy Miya

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  68. I'll never forget this baby girl, I never met.
    Following her progress, we prayed for God to notice.
    As I reflected, we share our day of birth ... we are connected.
    Today, as I pray: Naya with God, she stays.

    Her first and last, were days to commemorate.
    Jamie, Dan, Ty & Naya Jane: a family to celebrate.

    We love you, we pray for you, we hold you in our hearts.

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  69. My heart is broken for your sweet family. Your beautiful girl has been in my prayers and I will continue to pray for healing for you. God puts people in our lives, even for short periods, for a reason, but I suppose he needed another angel in heaven. I am so very sorry for your loss of little Naya Warrior.

    -Stephanie- fellow July BBC member

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  70. I am so so very sorry. There are no other words...

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  71. I'm so sorry to hear of Naya's passing. You and your family remain in our prayers.

    Andrea - fellow July BBC member

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  72. Dan, I just heard the news and am very sorry to hear about this all. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  73. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I cry as I type this so I cannot imagine what you guys are going through. Your sweet baby is now in a better place.

    "Then the child opened its eyes, and looked up into the angel's beautiful face, which beamed with happiness, and at the same moment they were in heaven, where joy and bliss reigned. The child received wings like the other angel, and they flew about together, hand in hand."

    With love,

    Sara S. (Wildcats33 from July birth board)

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  74. I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you go through this difficult time.

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  75. I am so sorry. your baby girl was and is beautiful!!!! thoughts and prayers are with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  76. So So sorry for your loss. I've just heard about your little girl and have been praying for you ever since I heard.

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  77. Letting go is the most difficult part! We were saddened to hear of Naya's passing. Her battle was truly an inspiration. We thank you for sharing it with us and allowing us to fall in love her. We will not forget her and what that beautiful baby endured. She was truly a blessing. She is now at peace and in a heavenly place surrounded by those that have gone before her. I can only imagine how they are loving her, kissing her and spoiling her right now. We will continue to keep all of you in our prayers. May God give your family the strength to make it through the coming days. You are never far from our thoughts.....

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  78. I am so sorry for you loss. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  79. Susan and I are thinking about you and your family.There are many friends who love you and the memory of Naya.

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  80. Hello, I'm so very sorry, for the loss of your beautiful baby. Your family has my thoughts, and prayers. I know how you feel, my boyfriend lost his little girl do to SIDS in 2004..she was only 3 months old. It's tough, but it will get easier.

    Sending prayers your way, God bless you and your family in this tough time. Just remember, baby Naya, is in a better place, and she's in the arms of the angels.

    -Amanda.

    Rest in paradise, baby Naya.

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  81. I am so sorry for your loss!

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  82. So very sad for you and your family ,Naya now has wings to set her free and love to last for eternity

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  83. I am soo soo sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God will take care of your and your family she is your angel

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  84. My heart breaks for you and your family. I'm so sorry that you've had to endure such pain. God gave you an angel who will always be watching over you. I can't even begin to imagine your pain. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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  85. I am so very sorry.. I lost a baby boy in 2010 at 21 weeks and I like to thik he is in Heaven, welcoming Naya. I have you in my prayers.
    jennames77 from July 2011 bbc

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  86. I'm from the July board at BBC. I am so very sorry for your loss, my tears and prayers are with you and your family. No other words. Xoxo
    Samantha

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  87. So sorry for the loss of your beautiful angel. My prayers will continue for you and your family. Joan Rose (Sara' auntie and Denise's mom)

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  88. Extremely sorry for your loss. My Family and I are sending prayers your way.

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  89. Craig and Tricia NanaumiSeptember 15, 2011 at 5:13 PM

    Our deepest sympathy for your loss. She's an absolutely beautiful little girl and was an inspiration to us; loved by two of the best parents. We will always be remembered and in our hearts. Dan, Jamie, and Ty you are in our thoughts and prayers. Our hearts go out to you.

    Craig and Tricia

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  90. I too am from Baby Center (February 2010 board). I've been reading your blog since you posted the link on your birth board. I read all of the roller coaster you have both been on and felt sadness when she was not doing well and joy when it seemed things were getting better. I am so very sorry for the passing of Naya. Such a beautiful angel on earth is now a beautiful Angel in Heaven. May you be blessed with strength to get through this terrible time.
    Thoughts and Hugs,
    Michelle

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  91. Also a BBC mom. My heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your words with us through your blog. You will never know how many people have shared in your ups and downs, triumphs and heartbreak. My deepest condolences. Your daughter was a beautiful inspiration. Rest in Peace, sweet angel.

    mom from Michigan

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  92. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandparents and mom several years ago, but even I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain that must be felt losing a child. From reading your blog, I can see that you and your family have an amazing amount of strength, Naya was so lucky to have such a wonderful and loving family. Please know that you are in my thoughts. <3

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  93. I can't begin to say how hard it hit me to read the news. I had the privilege of being mentored by Dan in the months leading up to your wedding as well as the months as he prepared for fatherhood. I was able to witness the pure love and excitement he had to become a husband and a father, and after leaving LEVEL I told many people about your family and how excited I was for you to welcome your baby girl. Naya was in my prayers everyday since I had heard she was sick and it broke my heart to just imagine what you were going through. I have always had a strong trust in God's plan but I must admit that this one is hard for me to understand and she was in my thoughts all day today.
    What I do know is that there is a plan, and it must be an important one. I know that the harder the pain a heart endures the stronger and bigger it grows even when it is feeling its weakest. I know that you and Dan will have a love that can endure anything and Ty will grow to be a man wise beyond his years with a very big heart. And you each will have a guardian angel for every step of the way.

    I know this may not be much condolence from someone you barely know but know that Naya's strength that was beyond her little body has made an impact on my heart that I will carry the rest of my life. I thank her and your family for reminding me that life is precious and you will stay in my prayers.

    <3

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  94. Hello, you dont know me, but I am from the July 2011 birth board. My son was born on the 23rd, a day before Naya. I started reading your blog and you have touched my heart. I have prayed for your family and for baby Naya. I cant imagine going theough anything like this. When I hear of these stories I hug my 2boys tighter every day. You are an inspiration and you have taught me to not take anything for granted, to cherish everyday we have on this earth. You will see Naya again in heaven, but for now she will rest in the clouds until then.
    With love,
    The Tileys

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  95. Oh damn. Very sorry to hear. She was a fighter. Sending warm, comforting thoughts your way.

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  96. Sometimes there are just no words.

    I am sorry beyond belief for your loss.

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  97. hello, i have posted before and just checked in for an update. i am so sorry. when my father died, a guide told me that he was with me anyway. and so i then found him here as one of the spirits guiding me and protecting me. Naya is with you, too - not because it is a kind thing to say, but because someone has to tell you that she is with you and will continue to be with you to guide your life. i think she wanted to to meet you? your voice is reaching so many people and causing them to feel love in their hearts now, when they weren't really paying attention to others - reaching out and loving someone they had never met, and yet loving anyway. when you send unconditional love to someone, you open your heart in a way that it is not possible to do otherwise. so, you Jamie and Naya, with your voice and past your pain, you have brought love back to all of us who are writing back and all of us who only just read your words. you caused us to re-think and appreciate. thank you so much for sharing and creating this energy. you will be well and you will see Naya and what she is creating for you. thank you.
    barbara-jo osborne

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  98. oh dear god girl i am so sorry for everything you have had to go through. may she rest in peace and watch over you and your family.

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  99. I am at a loss for words... my heart breaks for you and your family. Naya was, is and forever shall be, a beautiful angel. May she walk in peace and may peace find you someday. I can't imagine your grief... our prayers have been and will continue to be with you all. God bless and keep you close.

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  100. Oh Jamie. I am so sorry to hear about Naya. I was catching up with everything on your page tonight after I put my boys to bed and I was so sad to hear the news. I wish there was something I could do for you but unfortunately I can not do the one thing for you that you want most. I know that Naya is in Heaven with God and see will be watching down over you and your family. My God help you through this time and may your faith stay strong. God Bless,

    Juliette Riebock

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