Midpoint

Halfway there. I am officially halfway there - 20 weeks pregnant. Even though, I am technically more than halfway because I will be getting induced between 38-39 weeks, this is still a huge marking point. This has truly been the longest 20 weeks of my life. I have spent this entire pregnancy thus far counting down the days to hit certain points just so I have something to look forward to that isn't 9 months away. At first, it was making it to seven weeks because that's when we had our first ultrasound with our perinatologist. Then it was 9 weeks to hear the heartbeat. Then it was 12 weeks to know that we had passed out of the danger zone of the first trimester. After that, it was 13 weeks to the NT scan for chormosonal abnormalities. And now, I've hit another marker - the halfway point. I feel like I've been doing this for years. Which is ironically sort of true - I've been pregnant for 15 out of the last 20 months. By the time this is over, I will have been pregnant for almost 2 years straight.

I have never been one of those women that enjoy being pregnant. For one thing, I'm short. There is not a lot of room in my abdomen to begin with so when I'm pregnant, I get pretty huge and very uncomfortable.  And believe it or not, I swear I am getting bigger faster in this pregnancy. This is me at 19 weeks with both Naya (left) and nugget (right). Clearly, much bigger right?

Now here is me, 39 weeks and 3 days pregnant with Naya.

 

If I was that big with her - how much bigger am I going to get with this one? It's freaking terrifying.

But I am getting ahead of myself. 20 weeks. I am only 20 weeks and I can really only allow myself to take this one day at a time. The next thing to look ahead to is our big anatomy screen with the perinatologist on April 30. Once we get past that point, I know I will start feeling a little more hopeful about the future because right now, I know so much can still go wrong. Luckily, I have a very busy week to help keep my mind off things, including our big March of Dimes event on Saturday, April 28. But more on that later. I'm off to lie on my bed and eat some sugar to make this baby move around.