Comfort

Lying on my bed feeling the nugget kick makes me so happy. I love this little person so much already. I can't even begin to explain how much this pregnancy has helped me. It's given me such hope that there still can be joy in this world and that I will have happiness in my life again. This baby has actually made me look forward to the future and totally given me a reason to wake up in the morning.

I'm so glad that I am in that stage where I can feel him/her move on a regular basis now. (I'm at the halfway point.) It is so reassuring. That first 16 weeks or so were such torture - I literally checked to make sure I wasn't bleeding every hour. And this one is already such a character. We had an OB appointment today and it took her forever to find the heartbeat because s/he was moving around so much. (Yes, not being able to locate a heartbeat can be terrifying but I wasn't scared because I could feel nugget moving while she was looking with the Doppler. In fact, you could actually hear the movement. Another week and a half til our anatomy scan with the perinatologist. I am excited and terrified at the same time. I will feel so much better when I know that everything is developing the way it should. It's so strange how different my worries are with this pregnancy. I never once even considered that things wouldn't turn out perfectly with Ty and Naya. Ultrasounds were for seeing the baby and maybe finding out a gender. Now, I am worried about heart anomalies and whether the intestines are developing as they should. I could care less if we catch a glimpse of the junk.

This entry turned out longer than I intended though. I'm going to go back to lying on my bed and feeling my wiggle-worm at work now.