I probably should have posted this New Year's Day but I didn't. I've had a few days to digest this whole 2012 thing now and I've decided to come up with a list of goals/accomplishments to complete this year in lieu of a resolution. Here goes.
1. Give birth to a healthy baby (yes, this is my number one goal and dependent on quite a few factors other than my own determination but it is staying on the list.)
2. Be more patient with Ty and more active with his life. I was so depressed for so long that I was really neglecting this. Need to be better in this area.
3. Always be there for Dan when he needs me.
4. Revamp this blog and make it more of an informational/support center for infant loss. I will keep blogging but I want more resources for mamas on here. I especially would like to start by adding lots of local resources and start raising money to help parents with the costs after a loss.
5. Walk and raise at least $1000 for the March for Babies walk in April. (Putting my team together right now and more information will follow.)
6. Continue going to the gym everyday. Taking a week off right now (to avoid the New Years Resolution gym goers) but will return next week.
7. Put together a public event for this year's Candle Lighting in December. I've already got a location, just need to put this bad boy together. I've got 11 months, I think I can do it.
8. Try to meet my niece before she turns 1.
I think that's it for now. I am sure I will be adding more to the list as the year goes on. Strangely enough, I feel like the New Year has lifted some of the fog of the depression I have been in since Naya passed away. It's still there but just not as thick as before. I'm slowly pushing my way through it.
I like this. Count me in for March for Babies and the candle lighting.
ReplyDeleteHi Jamie,
ReplyDeleteI've been following your blog since the beginning. I too have lost a baby and I'm very sorry for your loss. I'm glad to see that you are feeling better these last few days. I hope this is the beginning of a healthier you. It's important to get your life back and bring the sweet memories of Naya with you. When my son passed away a few days after birth I remember thinking that I don't have any happy memories of him. I never heard him laugh or cry, I never saw him smile, he only opened one eye once. That type of thing. But now it's been 5 years and I can honestly say I only remember good things. Spending those few precious days with him meant everything to me. My hope for you is that you can soon remember the good things about Naya and all the hard times that she and you went through fades away.
Have you ever heard of Molly Bears? This is a foundation that was put together by a mom who lost her daughter, Molly. She makes weighted bears for angel mommies. You should Google them, they also have a Facebook site. You could put your name on the waiting list and get a bear made to the exact weight Naya was. Holding a weighted bear might help fill your empty arms. There are a lot of moms who are so grateful to hold a bear to remind them of what their baby felt like in their arms. The only unfortunate part is that the waiting list is very long but there are things you can do to help get your bear faster if you were interested.
Take Care
I have never commented on your blog, but this is a "Turn Around" which is REALLY positive to hear...Love U and Happy New Year!!!
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